Soon to be

 What if I told you the truth? Am I ready to expose myself and speak it into existence? For now, I will be honest, I am scared, but not in the way my peers are scared. They're scared for me; they think of me not making it, that I will instead hop, skip, and jump right into a white van because I won't have my wits about me. That's not my fear. Instead, my fear is what if I find my purpose, my sense of self, what if I become whole again? What if I don't want to leave? Change can be overwhelming. Am I truly ready for the transformation? Then again, what if nothing happens? I come home, and all I have is the itch to book another flight. 

I can't think like that; otherwise, my anxiety will ride me, and I've just learned how to control its reins. Let's change the narrative to a more optimistic tone. 

What am I excited for... meeting you. 

I am excited to see the world, to see truths, to see regions, languages, and people come together. I can't wait to see new lands and animals. This isn't just a flight or vacation, this is a journey, not just to a destination, it's a journey of me.