1/3/25

 You are not your career, it does not define you. You are more than that. I'm glad we talked, and you spoke a truth that I considered a fear. If I don't have a career, I don't have direction; if you don't have a sense of direction, people don't give you the same respect. It's twisted in my mind. Am I drifting? Have I lost my sense of direction? Have I lost my sense of self? I need to remember the basics, take a moment. Who am I? Take away the job, the people, the noise, and what do you see? 

I see a woman who fears her choices, for what if they are mistakes? Or maybe I fear looking in the mirror and seeing who  I am? Or maybe I fear I lost my boldness, You see me as confident, I see myself as a risk taker, and sometimes there are no rewards. Sometimes you take a risk, and you have a new choice to make, fall or fly. 

Actually, I'm playing it safe, if I don't go, will I ever? When I go, that's on me... a future is waiting... but I can't see the outcome.