I Saw You Last Night

 Last night I didn't just get myself tangled in my sheets, you also managed to get tangled in my dreams. It was only a dream, but I wish it wasn't. Losing you was a mistake, but last night made me realize neither of us will surrender our pride. Forgiveness goes both ways, but we gave up. 

The dream started like any other, except I tried to wake up. Yet every time you came into focus, you wouldn't let go. You wouldn't leave. Once you were like that, now you have everything; there isn't a need for me. 

With you, you allowed me to submit subconsciously. I felt safe. But your promises were merely words hanging in the air. When I needed you most, you weren't there. Now I know you are. You have been watching from the sidelines, checking up on me thinking I wouldn't notice, but I too am standing at the sideline watching you. 

Don't you remember what we shared?

That night we lay in the parking lot looking at the stars. It was just us and the cool night embrace. 

Or the nights when we would hop into your car and drive. 

What about the way you held me in your kitchen. I stood there looking past the world and time and you came behind me pulling me into your embrace, resting your head on my shoulder. Together we were our own story.

Don't you recall any of this? 

Or am I just the monster I created in your head to make you resent me. It's easier that way. Right? 

We tried countless times. 

Once we forgave. 

Maybe now... it's time to forget.