Updated

 It's time for an update. Life has been hitting hard, I decided to hit harder, but in a different way. Things started to feel like they were in shambles, I felt stuck, undesired, not wanted. I felt like as a person I was becoming merely a shadow, my own voice was becoming less than a whisper. My family and friends have always called me dominant, and intimidating... I felt like I was losing my flair. 

I decided to book a ticket to Ireland, and darling it didn't disappoint. Sometimes all you have to do is change perspective... or change location. 

Maybe I run from things, or maybe I run towards opportunities. It's all about perspective. I was in a pretty dark depressing time, the light within me was dim. Now for some reason, the light is coming back, my voice, the person I know I am, she's there, watching me become all I need to be and more.

With Ireland it was everything, I never thought of having that as a location to visit, but with all due respect I have visited the UK, so I thought Why There? Well, it's healing. The people I met and saw, we all seemed to need to bare our souls, for a minute or two. Sometimes strangers are the best people to talk to, they have no prior versions or views and opinions of you that can change their own standpoint. Instead, they know the now, and sometimes that's all they need. 

When the past comes forth, it clouds the present, twisting it into what it needs and wants to be. The past belongs in the past for a reason. 

My update is...

I have hope

I have an internship that challenges me and makes me want to explore and dig

I am coming from someone who knows herself

I am confident (Some may still call me dominant and intimidating) 

Life isn't meant to be easy or even simple. Instead, it's complex and rich with so many different outcomes, overall we have to find our own true desirable outcome.