they say

 They say talking helps. They say therapy helps. They say it will be okay.

I nod my head at their words but that's all it is. words. letters that for me have no meaning.

Instead, I go forward. 

People tell me to take time. 

The thing is if I stop. If I take time. Everything will come crashing down. 

So instead. 

I show up.

I do what must be done. 

I work.

I have dealt with pain and trauma. 

I know how it works. 

I close the door in it's face. I don't allow its sirens call to take me. 

Instead, I manage the best I can.

It's just another day. 

Tomorrow will be better, they say. 

I walk forward.