New Year, NEW ...

 Breathe. 

Everything seems to be chaos. I have applied for jobs. I have tried to get in contact with recruiters. Loans and bills echo my name. The tension in my shoulders, the tightness in my chest. I'm on the verge of anxiety. I push it down, but it seems to want to roar. I stay silent. I smile. I pretend. But, now I'm saying this. I am trying. It's just not easy. The fight in me seems to be dulling. I want to make everything work out, but my question is HOW? I am not comparing myself, instead I am just trying to figure out this reality of mine. 

Each year we fall into a New Year's Resolution... well this year here is what I am trying to do. 

1) Get Health Insurance 

    - Hopefully through a stable job or privately

2) To make my master's program a reality

    - down payment to hold my spot

    - pay the total of tuition

3) Stable and Secure

4) Drink more water

5) Be Happy

    -Within myself, my career, my education, and my family and peers

This year already seems to be heavy, like a storm cloud. Now the question is do I embrace it? Will I find the sun at the end of the storm, or will I crash?