Christopher

 His face is on my Netflix, I decided to watch the Danish film, not realizing it would have more influence than I had anticipated. I hadn't heard his voice since my freshman year of college. I decide to go back to my Spotify and press play. His lyrics hold memories, and truths I hadn't realized I held within myself. 

Free Fall plays and I am taken back to 2016.

Endless nights of dancing, men advancing, I am glancing at an enhancing memory of ... falling.

I had a heartbeat, that stilled. 

She was a silhouette.

His lyrics are realistic, real, and accurate to what I couldn't say. 

I smile while writing, his music playing softly in the background. Just yesterday I was distraught, about the things I couldn't control. Everythings seemed to come crashing down without warning. Now I try and balance. Friends console me. Forget about the future and the past Alyssa. Think of the now. Think of the good. Smile.