The love song within us that goes unnoticed

    Don't tell me you need me, if you don't belive it. O my sweetheart, where have you been, I miss you like the radio misses...I don't want to spend another day thinking of you. I might give you a drunk dial, to tell you what you already know, even though it's not my place to anymore. Come back home baby, I don't want to be reckless anymore. I hate how it feels like walking here without you. We said some things we regret. You are 1,000 miles away. I am getting my first taste of regret. My momma said you weren't good enough for me, but she knows that is a lie. How is somebody supposed to forget what was 99% perfect? If I would I could. I was locked onto you, all I had was tunnel vision. Why did you hit me with that green eyed stare at the car? Why did you reach for my hand and pull me towards you? Why did you kiss me under the moonlight? Why did you kiss me if you already knew it was over from the start? We burned to bright. We were wild. I should have seen it coming. I let go to soon. Do you ever think about me? Do you ever wake up lonely? Do you ever wonder if I still think about you? I have been drinking to much jack just to remember the taste of you. My heartache in the night. You should have come with a warning. Your truck was my personal drug. I can still feel your hands wrapped around my body, the breathe on the hallow of my neck, the way your eyes darkened with intesensity. People don't grow apart. Memories don't fade. I tried to find you in everyone I met. I don't even remember why I wasted all these tears on you. You didn't give a damn, you didn't fight. You let me walk out. You knew we weren't right. I couldn't give you what you needed. I let go, to save you. I wish I could erase the memories of you. We were endless promises. Look in my eyes, I don't want to hide. We were broken before we even began. We were caught in a wish. I am exhausted by the memory of you. You left me barely breathing. I heard my name is in your mouth. How am I supposed to live like this? How am I supposed to ignore your fix? You are my relapse. You made love feel so dirty. You deserted me. I thought you would follow me. I want to ask your opinion, but you are gone. I hate the danger we put ourselves in. I hate that old truck door that you allowed me to walk out of. I still love you. I wish you'd miss me. I wish you would call. I wish you would say my name. I was good for you. Darlin'. I never saw you coming, but... you came and you stole everything. You were my soft place to land. If we could do it all over again, I would let you. You stood out. Don't contemplate. My heart is meant for breaking. I was just your joy ride. I hope I am worth a bottle. I hope you cried. We were full speed, full throttle. Baby take the wheel, lets go through those red lights. Thought I wouldn't call. I was surprised when you answered. I am still trying to find the words. I don't want to go another day missing you. We were trouble. One more drunk dial. Baby instead of missing you, I am going through another double. You are the one memory I don't mess with. Why did you come? You were meant to ignore this wild heart of mine. You were supposed to ignore me. But instead you wanted to play with this fire. You liked the complicated. You like my wavering heart. You liked the push and pull. You were meant for this game. We got history. No one knew you better at 25. 

It never felt like the end.

It was just the beginning.