I am my own

 Today I reapplied for Napier University. I am so glad I had a second chance to apply, well actually a chance to apply for Fall of 2024. I feel like I have grown, yes I know it's been only a couple months from last I applied, but when I applied I didn't have the mental clarity I have now. I knew I wanted it, but the reason why was a bit of a blur. Writing my personal statement this time, I didn't feel like my words were staged, I didn't struggle or ask for advice. Instead, I allowed myself to talk, and I believe I did the Best. 

If I do get in I know I will be ecstatic and so proud. But, if I don't get in I know this. I am so happy I allowed myself to finally listen. I am awake. I didn't realize I had put myself on hold, listening to the world around me, and trying to follow the timeline of others. 

I am a writer, I am a CREATIVE. If it hadn't been for Napier finding me while I was on the search of a Master's program I don't think I would be here. I think I would still be asleep and okay with where I am. I don't want to be okay with the safe, I want to push boundaries, I want to be authentic, a fighter, a voice to be reckoned with. 

My personal statement may not have been pristine, glossy, and professional. But it was ME. 100% my voice. 

I have done it. 

I am becoming the woman I have always dreamed of. I once knew her, but the woman I look at in the mirror, makes me smile with pride. I have made mistakes and errors, but that's life. It's meant for that. Because then you find the yeses and the nos. With mistakes come clarity. 

I applied. 

To the next chapter, and the next yes or maybe my next no. I am open to the outcomes and possibilities.