Today

9/ 18 / 23

    Not every day can be perfect, or put a smile on your face. Some days you simply breeze through them without caution. Other days you may hide in the shadows hoping for that day to come to a close so you can start again tomorrow. The thing is each day you can reinvent yourself, you can allow anything and everything to happen. Yesterday, was one of those days where I observed others around me. Sometimes that in itself is enough, watching how people talk, process, and interact. Today, it's my job to express and be present. Today I want to accomplish creating a smile on a person's face because I made a remark that brought them joy. I want to laugh till my lungs burn and I am gasping for air. Today I simply want to be happy. Happiness is not a constant state, it comes and goes like the tide. We can want it desperately, but we must chase it and allow it to consume us in its radiant glory.

When was the last time you were truly happy?

    The moments I am with my mom and brother. When we share a meal, and allow our worries to melt away. We simply are just a family. We smile and cherish one another's company. I miss their company, more often than I would like to admit. My mom and her spontaneous ways, which I love so dearly. Or when she knows I am in a funk, and decides it is time to head to Wisconsin for nachos and mojitos. Or when my brother looks at me and states "I am proud of you." It's easy to forget all the accomplishments when one small negative thought becomes a storm in your mind. But I must remember, otherwise what is there besides doom and gloom. Remind yourself of the accomplishments you have done, and what challenges you have overcome. 

It's amazing to look back on life and think of how much I have done. Sometimes I feel like I haven't done anything but just live. Yet, when I look back I see more. I have allowed myself to live, to ponder and wander about. I have never allowed myself to stop and think, because if I do I simply hold back. Sometimes it's better to take a leap into the unknown. What could go wrong? Everything, perhaps or perhaps not. Maybe just maybe everything could possibly go right. Perception is key to life. How we perceive and view the world and the choices we make. 

Perception 

How do you perceive yourself? Who do you see in the mirror?

Today I see myself as a dreamer, a writer, and someone who is finding herself. And for me, that in itself is enough. Because tomorrow I can be anything and more.